Monday, July 14, 2008

Can those people whom are close to us appreciate our effort of personal growth?

I woke up today feeling so low, because yesterday which was a Sunday, we had a misunderstanding with my wife, the maid (house girl) had used the things she had bought and since the maid was not there, she started to cry and I called her so that we can discuss the matter, instead she ignored despite me sending for her through our son. Then she came, I didn’t like the way she made her decision because she said that, since the maid used the food, then from today onwards we shall eat,sukuma wiki (kale) for a whole week, this didn’t go down well with me, because I felt she should have consulted us me and our son before making any decision.
Instead of seeing it positively from her side, maybe I didn’t communicate clearly, she started talking harshly and I felt I should also tell her it was wrong, readers what I learnt from this experience is that we are creatively on our own, she attacked my personal growth and even told me that what I was reading and pursuing is useless ,there ,then I felt like chasing after the wind because and this incidence made me to feel that were not really together with my wife, even if you are miraculously joined together, my opinion is that you are joined to procreate and not emotionally.
I have been sharing with her about all my plans inclusive personal development but those revelations don’t go down well with her because the way she reacted in this situation really scared me and she seemed not to be appreciative. This is my renew resolution and lesions from this experience.
• I will tread carefully about my relationship, and this is how my life will be. I will never tell her or any other person until the see the changes in my life, my life is my own, I know where I am coming from and where am going, it is easy to feel to share but see weigh what you are sharing to anyone even the person you are staying with and sleeping in the same bed, the support will only come when they see the result.
• I will just continue appreciating her or anyone’s achievement but reserve my comments, what I have come to learn is that people will never like to be given a second opinion of certain thoughts they have. I will commit myself to share with her my love, intimacy but when it comes to dreams it is a personal growth and commitment and I think that is why we have salvation being personal you will never go with anyone in heaven, salvation to me in this sense is the revelation you continue getting from universe(God)as you move by.
• Instead of sharing with an individual, I will write an article about my discovery to the universe and post it in the internet and am sure there is someone somewhere who will be interested with what I am doing now. My wife cant understand, my friends cannot fathom, and when I happen to meet them is to share their life achievements and struggles and only listen to them but not comment anything,
• I want slowly to start making friends online, because it is a place where the whole world has been reduced to a small world and getting someone whom you share dreams and goals is easy. The universe cannot give you something you have not asked for.

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